Kwentong Kolehiyo

To The Girl Who Got His Heart

Hello! You may (not) know me, still, let me tell you how lucky you are to have him. Di mo lang alam, madaming nagpapangarap na makasama yan, isa na ko dun =))

But the thing is, you having him won't be enough. You have to be there whenever he needs you, because he's a really sad man. Take it from me, I know him well enough to call him that.

He's a mixture of emotions all locked up and ready to burst, so sometimes, you won't really understand what's going on inside his head. Pero girl, kahit na medyo may pagka gago siya, wag kang mag-alala, mahal na mahal ka niyan. Makikita mo yan whenever he smiles at you, and it's like it's the brightest smile he can ever give, whenever he holds your hand through dark alleyways, or whenever he calls you sweet nicknames. Mahal ka niya.

You have to appreciate him, even though he's so broken in his own way. Appreciate him and show him just how much. Kasi you and him? It's what he may as well have wanted for so long.

Pano ko alam? Simple lang, I was the first. I was the first to love him for the demons inside his head and not for the angels inside his smile. I knew him from the way he acted and the way he was once to me. Because before you, there was me.

Me. But then, things happened, I was never enough. And I can never compare to you, girl, never.

I saw him, I saw the way he looks at you, and in that short span of time witnessing how much love was in those eyes that once gave me that kind of look, I know that you, you will be the queen. You will be the sun and the moon and the stars and the gravity that holds everything in order. You will be his Anna Karenina, you will be his Juliet, you will be his Cossete, you will be his Cinderella. Everything I will never be, you are to him. You are the definition of perfect in his eyes.

You will always be.
And it will never be me.

So you lucky woman, ingatan mo siya ha? Mahal na mahal ko yan. Bake him cupcakes with sprinkles and love and sweet things, listen to him sing over the phone or in personal, make up raps with him whenever he proposes to, eat your half of the fries when he says you have to, hold onto his hand when he holds onto yours, and show him just how much.

Because I can't show him just how much anymore.

Sincerely,
The one that lost him.

PS, pakinggan mo rin yung mga favorite bands at songs niya, sobrang tutuwa yun :)). Pink Floyd, classical rock, yung mga ganun! :))

Musika 
2019 
Faculty of Arts and Letters