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Best Break up Ever

"If you really love each other, this won't happen diba?" Said your mom to me.

"Opo... But this break up was out of love din po"
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Mahal kita. Yun na yun. Malinaw na malinaw. Pero kailangan nating maghiwalay dahil hindi ko na kaya pang mahati ako sayo at sa pamilya ko.

Tinatanong mo ako kung gusto kong makipaghiwalay sayo. Nakakainis na gusto mo agad ng sagot. Hindi mo pwedeng biglain mga ganitong bagay. So finally i said, "" the answer to your question is NO. I don't want to break up with you BUT i want you to break up with me."" And you did. sabi mo, ""choose your parents.""

ANG SAKIT SAKIT!!!
earlier that day i asked for a sign. If you break up with me, im migrating to Australia. And you did.

My flight was scheduled 2days after our breakup. So i ask you if we could atleast be a couple before i leave. You agreed.

Picnic sa lover's lane kung saan binigyan pa tayo ni Kuya ng Yema dahil ang sweet daw natin, kain sa pnoval. Slept at your dorm, skipped class. Sobrang ironic dahil ang sweet natin and everyone were saying so too.. But this was actually our last day together.

Ironic kasi people break up because they dont love each other anymore. But in our case, no kasi sobrang mahal na mahal kita. Best break up kasi, we're not bitter. We both cried over this. We love each other. We talked about it. Walang nagcheat. We forgave. We will move on together. We wont bring each otherdown, we help each other.

Im writing this while im in here at Australia. Masaya ako dito because there are so many distractions. But what scares me is going back. Wanting to hold your hand and remembering us. Realizing, there is no "us".

I love you so much more than you could ever imagine.I did what i could do for you. Ilang cakes ang nabake ko para sayo, ilang putahe and inaral ko para sayo. Ilang notes and nire-write ko para makopya mo. Ilang class ang trinansfer ko para mapunta sayo. Anong oras ang gising ko para makapunta sa dorm mo. Ilang takas ang nagawa ko para makipagdate sayo. Ilang oras ng practice sa piano para makita mo. Lahat ng katangahan para mapansin mo. I could've done so much more. Im sorry...

Maybe this isnt the end of our story... Because we make our own story through time. Naniniwala ka ba sa Tadhana? Hindi ako naniniwala dun eh. Pero pansamantala, sige muna. Hanggang sa panahon na there will be no heart pierced through the arrow.

My last words to you were:

In life we love.
In love we lose.
In losing we learn.

I love you Sebastian. I will always be your Zemira.

PS. Alam kong hinihintay mo ako sa pagbalik ko. Sana hindi lang yung pagbalik ko sa Pilipinas ang maantay mo. Sana maantay mo rin ang pagbalik ko sa piling mo.

PianistaKolehiyana 
2012 
Conservatory of Music