Kwentong Kolehiyo

Hanging

To S,

I still love you. I never thought things would turn out this way. I never imagined that your mom would tell us to stop our relationship, not even giving me a chance to prove myself. I was happy. You said you were too. With the way things turned out, I can see you weren't. Even before we broke up, I felt that you were starting to become unhappy. Discontent. I tried my best to change. For the better. For us. For our future. I had no idea our future would be gone within a week.

It's been a month and a week since you broke up with me. I'm still not over you. I can't get over you. I was taking my trigonometry quiz yesterday, you were at your welcome walk. I was texting you. Asking you about the things I found out about while stalking your Twitter. Hahaha I admit, it was my fault. I was stupid. I shouldn't have opened it. I discovered you already found someone new. It really shouldn't have been a surprise to me as when we met each other, we both just got out of bad relationships.

My friends tell me you're keeping me as a reserve. A back-up plan. In case you get hurt again. That's why you want us to stay friends. I never believed them. I don't want to believe them. You were such a huge part of my life that I don't want to ruin your image by believing the things they tell me.

I still love you, I still miss you, and I'm still hanging on. But I want to move on. You once asked me if I'll still be there for you if you want to come back to me. Now I see that you won't come back. I was willing to wait for you. To stay committed. You weren't. I hope you'd be happy with your life. With your decisions.

I hope you'd be happier with her than you ever were with me.

Pinagpalit sa babae
2015
School of Mechanical and Manufacturing Engineering