Kwentong Kolehiyo

I Miss How We Used To Be

FOR ARTBOY

I miss you. I really do. I'm still wrapped in the memory of you being in love with me. I miss seeing your name in my inbox. I miss having our deep conversations. I want you to start the conversation, but I guess that won't be possible. I miss holding your hand. I miss your scent, to be honest, I can't get it off my mind. Why can't you look at me the way I look at you? Maybe, I'm just too caught up to notice. I miss seeing you fix your hair. I miss hearing your voice and your laugh. I miss how you make me feel better. How could you do it so effortlessly?

I miss you being jealous and avoiding talking about him. I know you still do.

I miss that night.

I miss dancing with you and I kind of hoped it would never end (and that the dance floor was bigger). None of the boys I danced that night really mattered. I only wanted to dance with you. I guess you didn't know, I waited for you to walk up to me and ask for a dance, and I thought, maybe you just forgot about it. It was funny because I went back and forth just to get your attention. I went looking for you. And I saw you. I couldn't stand to see you dancing...being with another girl. I miss calling your room. My friends and I stayed up late and we barely got any sleep. You told me once that you wanted to meet my friends and you brought your friend with you and I had to get you from the lobby because you forgot your room card. I told you that they can't see us together so we went back to your room and I kind of messed with you, sorry.

It was 4 am, my friends and I were all having fun and I got bored so I called you and asked if you wanted to go to a convenience store. We met again at the lobby and you brought your friend, again! My friends called to check up on me and I had to do random things so they would believe me. Well, I did tell them I went alone. We went back to the hotel and you tried to carry me on your back and I tried to carry you too. We were both heavy, I guess. When we got there, we went back to our rooms. You called me again and I told you to sleep. My friends were asleep and I felt sleepy. You know what? I wasn't sleepy at all, I still wanted to talk to you and be with you, who knows when will next time be? I texted you. And texted you again. And again. And again. You replied and said you fell asleep. We decided to roam around downstairs and went back to your floor and we stayed there and sat. We waited for your friends to open the door (you forgot your room card, again!). We talked about how we'll miss each other and I stared into your eyes. I wish I could stay there for a little longer, but I think I've been out too long. You texted me and you told me to never go back there again because you were crying and you'll miss me and you told me you love me.

We all decided to go swimming and after a while, I saw you with your friends. When everyone was busy, we decided to talk and I remember you pushing me in the pool. You and your friends went back to your room so I stayed a little while with my friends. I went back to the room alone because I had to leave early, I prepared my things. I called your friend and he said you all went to eat breakfast. I waited. When you got back, I went to your room and I said my good bye's and I hugged you tight. My mom called and I just couldn't let go. I expected you to stop me and hug me tighter, but you didn't. I left. I got my things and saw my parents waiting at the lobby. I got your text and you told me again that you'll miss me.

I miss how we used to be.

Scarlet Witch
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