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I'm sorry. I don't deserve you.

so tired of hearing this fcking words as an excuse of leaving me again and again. why can't you just make ways to be deserving huh? i really can't contain men who's making this as a reason for dumping girls

I've been there, I've been hurt several times. i was once a believer of forever but it changed. my past was so hurtful that lead me to become a person i know i am not. to be a player.

sabi ko collect and collect then break their hearts. that was my motto back then. but you came into my life again. yes, we met like several years ago but you didn't had the chance to show me the real you or your feelings for me. then after awhile we got the chance to talk, and share our moments together. at first sabi ko mahirap. kasi player pa ko, at ikaw fresh pa from breakup. but still you insisted, and then i gave way for you. i risk for you. i trusted you. letting go of my past, and focus on you. because i felt that you're different from other guys ive dated before.

yes, no dull moments with you. you always give me butterflies on my tummy, you always make ways to make me laugh and to make me like you. we don't rush things. kasi sabi natin hindi maganda yun. so i guess perfect timing na nagkita ulit tayo.

pero bakit nga ba masaya lang sa simula. after all, you changed, you changed the moment when i'm starting to like you and dreaming to be with you in the future then you said you're sorry because you don't deserve a person amazing as i am. then my heart somehow stopped beating after i heard those words from you. you said goodbye and left me just like my past.

i cried not because i love you but because i let you broke me into pieces. i can still remember the time when you said that you'll not gonna hurt me the way my past did. that you'll make me your princess, will never stop to make me happy and not letting me to feel a regret that i gave you a chance. it was perfect, you and me helping each other to unpack our excess baggages from our past but everything you said just disappeared like bubbles. you said you'll never let me go, but you just did. you know well my past, you know that i barely trust guys but pagdating sayo, nakuha mo ung trust ko. and yet you still chose to break my heart. why? why? after all this heartaches, i wanted to fight. i wanted you back because it will still make me happy. because i wanna be with you, but i asked myself, will you be happy? i dont want to be selfish na baka pg pinaglaban ko, hindi ka nmn maging happy. pero paano? kung ikaw na mismo ung nang iwan.

ang guys ba same lang rin sa girls na pag ng fight ng konti, babalikan na? or if guys decided to end up. its final?

i kept on thinking na baka karma ko to from what i did. pero kasi hindi nmn kita hinanap, kusa ka lang dumating. and everything that happened to us i prayed to God. he even gave me signs that ive been waiting. pero unfair tlga, hindi nmn ako ngbigay ng motive nung una , ikaw! pero ako pa rin ung nasaktan!

if ever mabasa mo ito. and tamaan ka. please wag mo na uulitin sa iba ha. kasi unfair. kasi masakit. pero don't worry kahit nasaktan mo ko, hindi ako galit sayo. hindi ko magawang magalit kasi nging masaya naman ako sayo. sana lang, maging happy ka sa naging decision mo na iwan ako. at balikan ang ex mo. "

once a princess
2010
CFAD.