Kwentong Kolehiyo

The Plan

I want you to hate me. Well, the plan worked, didn't it?

Here's my story.

My friend and my ex are now dating.
And I did everything a basic miserable bitch would do.
I drank.
I smoked.
I used social media to get back at her, nastily.

To you,
Thank you for the 3 years we had.
I saw my future with you. I saw us graduating together.
I saw us reaching for our dreams together.
But I guess we're not on the same page.
I'm sorry I'm not enough.
I'm sorry for declining your friendship and treating you a stranger.

To her,
You know, for a while, I really trusted you. I sought for your advice
when we were having problems. You are our ""mediator"" if you will say.
You also gave him advice. You even said that you were rooting for us.
My friends tried to warn me (when you two were getting close), but I brushed them all off.
""She's not like that,"" I would say. Well, you proved me wrong.
It's okay. I don't trust you, but I forgive you.
He really likes you. He takes care of you like he took care of me.

To me,
Congratulations. Your plan worked. You know him so well to know that he hates the new you.
You can stop pretending, honey.
Now, she won't have to worry if he will come back to you. He won't. Ever.
And basically, everyone hates you. They laugh at your face because they think you're miserable, even desperate.
They saw what you chose for them to see. You're good. Wanna be an actress? Just kidding.
Well, they are now ignoring you. You can leave their lives now.
Go on. Pick up every little piece of you that's left when they broke you.
Somehow, someday, when you're whole again, you can go back to your old self.
The good girl you always have been.
A woman who's stronger than the hurt and betrayal she felt.

P.S.
I didn't do this to get you back. We both know I can't make you happy.
I did this so you can burn your way back to me and lead you to her.
I'm sorry it has to be this way. I really do hope you're happy.
At para sa mga nakikisawsaw na nagpaparinig diyan, tagalog ito para maintindihan niyo.
Sige magpost lang kayo nang magpost. Tawanan niyo pa ako. Akala niyo hindi ko alam?
Akala niyo hindi ko naririnig? Hindi ako tanga, mga gago. Anong feeling?
Masarap ba? Nakakalalaki ba? Ikinagwapo niyo ba? Hahaha. Sana may napapala kayo sa mga ginagawa ninyo.
Sige lang, di ko kayo papatulan. Asa, boy. I won't stoop that low. Ang mahalaga, nagawa ko na ang gusto kong gawin, at nangyari na ang gusto kong mangyari.

P.P.S.
No one else knows the plan except me. If you knew me too well,
you'll recognize me here. Just please keep it to yourself.

Patola
2013
Faculty of Arts and Letters