Im Crissa, 20, from faculty of engineering. Gusto ko lang ishare yung story ko with my discreet gay best friend.
We've been friends for almost 2 years. And yes masayang masaya ako kasi naging kaibigan ko siya. As ive said, discreet siya. Yes, even ako napeke. I thought he was a man. When i saw who he really is, I said to myself that if ever magkaka bf ako, gusto ko katulad niya, gusto ko siya.
alam mo yung feeling na bago ko pa nalaman lahat ng nalaman ko, gusto ko na siya. Pero lagi ko lang dinedeny, bakit? Kasi nga he's out my league. Kasi tingin ko im not good for him. Ang bait bait niya and boyfriend material talaga. He's my dream man. He's attractive. Having a rating of 7 out of 10. Not bad right? He's smart. Nice. And God, in deed, he's hot.
One day, i decided to break up with my bf. Why? Kasi sobrang narealize ko na di pa ko handa. Hindi pako buo. At baka hindi pa ako sigurado talaga, so nung huli namin away hindi ko na siya sinuyo. Pagod nako eh.
After the break up with my bf, doon ko mas lalong naappreciate si discreet bestfriend. I even prepared different surprises for him. Kasi gusto ko maramdam na special siya. Yes i admit it special talaga siya. siguro kaya ako ganto kasi masyado akong nagexpect at masyado akong nag assume sabi nga nila never assume unless stated. Gulong gulo lang talaga ako sakanya. May times na okay siya. May times na hindi.
Hanggang one time, naramdaman kong unti unting lumalayo na siya. Later that i realized my worth, maybe he really is too much for me. Kaya lumayo na rin ako.
And maybe i really expected something from him kaya eto hirap na hirap ako pretending to know nothing even if i know everything.
Pretending to be cool and normal, even though it hurts so much.
Pretending that i dont like you because i love you.
And yes im in love with you since day one.
P.S. Alam ko na gay ka dont deny it.
PPS sorry i cant tell you this
PPPS walang forever okay? Oo bitter ako! Ang sakit eh! So hindi eto ung ending na "kami na ng bestfriend ko" kasi di pwede"
Girl on fire
2011
Faculty of Engineering
BINABASA MO ANG
Kwentong Kolehiyo
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