Kwentong Kolehiyo

Real Men Value Women

We had been with each other for 3 years. That was long, but not long enough to last. You see, you told me that you wouldn't leave, you told me to hold on, to be strong. Because you said that nothing could ever tear us apart. I believed it. Because I love you, so much. I cannot let you go.

Even the time when my parents found out and almost cried infront of me knowing that their daughter betrayed their rule to not enter into a relationship until I graduated in college, I didn't give up. I fought for you until they accepted us. Even the untrue issues and gossips the people made in the school about us dragged me down, I still stood with my head up, ignoring their words, just for you, for us. I wanted to show them that we were strong and unbreakable. Even when you told me that there was a possibility that you may not study in Manila, I didn't leave you in the air. I was there by your side telling you that we can do it, that we just need to have communications.
But then why, in all of these, could you still have the guts to not trust me? Why were you so unfair? I gave you my whole trust, but why didn't you gave me yours? I am a good girl, but you chose to see me as a bad one. You got drunk in jealousy, yes you chose that thing to overpower you. You only saw a picture of me and my guy ""friend"", during our college week, where my right hand was on his left shoulder, and then just that, you texted and told me that you wanted to break up with me. All for that ONE PICTURE? You told me I didn't care about you, you told me that that picture explained everything that me and my guy friend has ""something"". And what hurts me the most even now was all the awful things you said about me. Okay, so it was my fault for putting my arm around him because you were jealous, but you have no right to disrespect me. You have no right to call me in bad words. I was once your girl. How can you tell me those terrible things??? I loved you. I explained that we were just friends, that he was like my brother. But you chose to believe your incredible self. You chose your jealousy to take over you. You chose that instead of me. You were so desperate to leave me, you keep on saying like how flirty I am. So I made a very difficult and courageous decision to say yes for the break up that you wanted. Even if it's hard. Even if it hurts. Even if I'd die. It was hard to move on. Very very hard, because you became a part of my life. You were once my Baymax. It hurts when things in my surroundings makes me remember you. I always cry at night. But I cannot stay with a man who doesn't even respect me, and who always think that I flirt with every boy I knew in my school (just because I am talking to them). These boys were just like my brothers. Why did you let your jealousy take you over? If you only knew that all I was telling my friends when I'm with them was how I was into you, and you and you. Huh. I thought I knew you because I was with you for 3 freaking years, but I was so wrong. So, you know what? I'll show you how Strong I am. I'll show you that I can live again without you. Because my mom was right: ""real men value women"".

Dauntless Mockingjay
2014
Faculty of Pharmacy