Kwentong Kolehiyo

The Richman's Daughter

"I've been always a fan of your university. Yes, I'm not from UST pero naging malaking part ng buhay ko ang umikot sa university nyo.

I met my Thomasian ex boyfriend sa P. Campa. Sa kanya kasi ako nagtanong kung nasaan yung Made Easy Bookstore. Then sinamahan nya ko. Until we became close. Na parang may instant connection between the two of us. We became good friends and then lovers. Our relationship lasted for 3 years. After kasi nya mag pre-med, pumunta na siya sa very far place somewhere in Europe to finish his unfinished medicine journey. Hindi namin kinaya ang LDR, lalo na siya. So nag break kami. I'm still studying and 3rd year pa lang ako, so I continued my life kahit masakit.

Until I met this girl... She's very extraordinary. We became best friends. Siya yung pinaglalabasan ko ng sama ng loob, lahat ng grief and even bitterness ko sa past relationship ko. She cherished me very much. VERY VERY MUCH. Siya yung laging nasa tabi ko. She even know every single detail of me. With my breathing, and even with the simple body language, alam nya yung ibig sabihin. She's not a lesbian and so am I. Pero I feel a certain connection between the two of us. Ewan ko kung natural lang sa kanya, pero iba na kasi yung dating sa akin. And I'm slowly falling for her.

I confronted her about it. Ang tapang ko ba? Well tapang-tapangan lang. It's now or never. Do or die as well. Nagulat siya. She didn't imagine na ganun na daw pala yung dating sa akin. Awkwardness struck the both of us. A very long moment of silence. But when I gained back my confidence, I told her to forget about it. Weeks passed, iba na yung pinapakita kong treatment sa kanya. Not really that cold but I lessen up the sweetness. I'm fighting over from what I feel eh. And then she confronted me naman. Nagsisisi daw siya kung bakit she got scared when I confronted her about my feelings. She's asking for another chance. Kung pwede daw maging kami na lang. And then ayun na nga. Since I haven't move on, naging kami.

We'd built a very strong relationship. It's not perfect but I know it's worth fighting for. Yun nga lang, we remained very private kasi bawal sa family ko. Sa family nya ok lang, but still ayokong sabihin nya para fair naman. Until we graduated, kami pa rin.

Then one day, I saw a very familiar face. The guy who broke my heart badly. Nag flashback saken lahat. All the pain, all the hatreds, and even the feelings that I had for him. I loved him very much pero tinapon lang nya lahat ng yun. Tapos bumalik siya para humingi ng sorry? I'm not stupid para sabihin na "Yes, I forgive you." kasi until that very moment galit pa rin ako sa kanya. So hindi ko na lang siya pinansin. And besides I have my girlfriend now. And siya na yung mahal ko. Not that man. Pero he grabbed me and dragged me through his car until we reached a very memorable place... his house.

Sabi nya mag-uusap lang daw kami. But, nangyari ang hindi dapat mangyari. It's not rape. I'm still at my senses that time and I completely allowed him with everything. Pero isa lang ang nasa isip ko nun. My girlfriend. I betrayed her. When I woke up from slumber. Ako na lang mag-isa. Wala na siya.

And now here I am. Hindi pa rin alam ng girlfriend ko yung nangyari. And the worst thing is, I'm pregnant. Hindi ko alam kung pano ko sasabihin sa kanya. And the father of my baby, is nowhere to be found.