Kwentong Kolehiyo

Crab Claw

Naalala ko dati nung 1 year old pa yung bunso kong kapatid,

ibang klase grip nun, pag may natipuhan na laruan hindi na mabatiwan lagi nang hawak hawak.
(part of the baby's motor skills I guess?) 
minsan nga hindi namin namamalayan na nakakapulot na siya
ng beads/pointy objects so kaming ate na nagbabantay, ang trabaho namin ay
mailayo ung mga ganung bagay kay bunso baka kasi malunok or matusok siya sa mata, masugatan, etc.,
So ang ginagawa namin, kinukuha namin ung unwanted thing/s sa grip niya, sasabihan namin na ""bawal yan, bad yan sayo.."" kukulitin ng kukulitin namin hanggang sa 
mabitawan niya and when worst comes to worst pinipilit na namin ibuka ung kamay niya para lang makuha ung gamit para iwas disgrasya, kahit minsan nagttantrum na siya.

okay you might be wondering, bakit eto yung kwento ko?
you see, we all have that crab claw on someone.

Pag may nagustuhan tayo at nakapagdecide tayo na ikikeep na natin,
Most of us will hold on tightly to that someone making sure that they will stay and they will never leave.
Siyempre, there are people around us (like our family and friends) will tell us that we should let go on what we're holding, cause they know what's best and good for us, 
kahit paulit ulit na nila kang kinukulit at sinasabihan na makakasama sayo yan, at pinapahirapan mo lang ang sarili mo sa pagkapit diyan blah blah blah.
like a good and obedient person that we are, we tend to shut out people's advices and follow the things that we think is good for ourselves, desperately hatching a plan on how to make things better.

but in the end, we're just making it worst. Kasi hindi pa natin namamalayan na nakakasama at nakakasakit na pala sa atin yung pag patuloy nating pagkapit sa tao na pinapahirapan tayo.

Ramdam mo na nga ung ngalay, pero sige ka parin, kasi ayaw or natatakot ka na mawala sayo ito pag bumitaw ka.

Dadating din yung araw na hindi mo na kaya, bibitawan mo na lang.
Marerealize mo na hindi na siya worth keeping, pabigat na siya, at pagod ka na talaga
at nakapagdecide ka na din na mas mabuting pakawalan mo nalang siya kahit labag ito sa loob mo.

I just want to say na hold on to something worth keeping and let go of what's dragging you down, it may be difficult but someday you'll thank yourself for doing it, cause you'll save a lot of tears, heartaches, pain and regret.

Ally 
2010 
College of Fine Arts and Design