Kwentong Kolehiyo

Dear Ex-Bestfriend

remember the times we shared precious moments? that moment we both cried because the girl you like busted you for like many times? remember the times we laugh our hearts out that brought us to tears because we made fun of the girl we think likes you? how about the late night sleep just for us to talk even though we still have classes in the next morning? who would forget about pranks we made towards the teachers? we were the best pasimuno back then. and would you ever forget that you wear same thing as mine so just you can match with me? oh, and, the skype calls where you just asked me if i can hear you all throughout the call? do you still remember the happy moments? the sad? the scary? the funniest? the memories? . oh, i bet that you dont. i mean you dont miss that, do you? because if you do so, you wouldnt just walk out of my life. but me? i seriously still do. but not that much you think i would

i just want to clear things up. i dont chide you. i dont reprove that it was your fault. it was clearly mine. but.. but it was because i feel like im in my lowest downfall during those times. and i dont wanna pull you down with me so i pushed away so i can get through that atleast on my own. and make you wait for just a little while. little did i know i maybe pushed you way too hard but im sure that was not for too long.

i ask for forgiveness for several times. i didnt hear even a single word from you as a response. i got tired. everyone gets tired, of course. you may think i gave up easily but no, i just got tired.it hurt me. you hurt me. i didnt know that when i was trying to get up from the downfall you're on your way to other people, to other friends. i just wanted to congratulate you because you did it successfully. you made new friends, a new bestfriend. and you completely forgotten about me.

i cried to sleep every night during those times. i asked people how you're doing. i asked them if you're happy. i even told them how i miss you so bad. i checked every social networking sites you have. and thought of how my life would be happier and better if we're still in good terms.

did you ever do the same thing? did you ask some of our common friends how i was?if i am dead or still alive? if i passed or failed a subject? did you even miss me?

but its okay. everyone did get hit by change. i was just surprised that you got hit right away, go with it and discarded all we have. i just expected too much from you. i expected we can be friends longer than this. longer than what we had. but again, its okay.

but if you will ask me right now, i'll tell you im fine, still alive, and finally happy now. i missed you. but i can already live without you. its been a pleasure for you to be my guest and be part of my roller-coaster-ride-like life. i hope you had fun. because i absolutely did. 

im not hoping that you wanna ride again on my life. because i wont let you( just kidding ha ha ha) but just so you know its already full. and they made the ride better, more fun and exciting. i dont want riders that want to quit easily on my roller coaster just because it takes too much time and effort to get onto the peak of the rail. just like you when you chose to drop off to soon. but i got through the thought that you chose a carousel over a roller coaster.

thank you for the awesome moments. im sorry for changing. im sorry i have to be this way. but i wont apologize for who i am now. i wish you the best of luck! MASAYA SA UST, promise!

love,

ex-bestfriend

PS. i just hope you missed me too. but i hope it didnt hurt like what ive felt beacuse as i know you, you cant handle it and you might shut down at any moment."